Dear, I'm very tired now. Just now I was really happy but I don't know if that's the real me cause now, I don't feel an inch of happiness in me. I'm missing you alot alot every night. Whenever it's night time, I will miss you especially much and I will try to go to bed asap to cope with this feeling. Haix. Tmr is Saturday and I had no plans. But I also don't want go out cause it's a Saturday. A Saturday without you is not a Saturday anymore. Haix. I'm gonna hide at home till afternoon and will go your house to get the card from Mummy. But actually I don't even feel like going because I'm going to your house, to simei and alone. Haix. I'm sure going to miss you even more. :( But I wanna talk to you more and soon, so decided to just go ahead to go your house. :(

Dear, I also feel like talking to you the whole day. But now we can't even talk for an hour. I also got so many things to talk to you. Everyday I will have so many things to tell you but I cant only cut short or even don't say. Haix. The feeling is just so terrible. The feeling without you feels so empty. Sometimes I'm wondering, the happy me is it the real me. I really don't know if I'm really happy when I'm happy.

Dear, work is tiring me out so much. No one day I reach home feeling great or feeling still energetic. I can't even go running. My plans are failing. Wanted to run tmr but I can't tie my hair cause I just reborn my hair. Sigh. Dear, you are being deeply missed by me so much.
Dear, know something? I always sms you when I closed sales and sounded very happy. But deep in my heart when I closed sales, I don't feel as happy. Even the 1st sales. I just feel a bit more motivated but not as happy as I sound in sms. Sending that sms to you I'm very happy that moment but not before it or after it. :(

I also wish to be yours eternally! You are the man in my life! :) I just simply find you so special and unique. Beside you being such a nice Indian boy, the way you treat mummy, how much you miss mummy, you have many many more nice things about you that you just can't see. But I saw all of them which touches me whenever I see you. You are indescribable and you are like the prince in my fairytale. I always cannot believe such things are happening to me and can't help it but feel so damn fortunate! :D
Dear, my thoughts and feelings will never be able to be written in words and even if it's able to be written down in words, it will be never-ending. So I better stop here, so dear please please please takecare! I love you and love you more if you are Happy, Healthy and Having fun there!

Labels: Day 7 - 11.09.09