Haix. I'm sorry if my reply was cold. I really couldn't nag at you much anymore. Haix. I wanna takecare of you. I don't want you to be sick, be injured or whatever. I just want you to be happy, healthy, free from injuries just like what you want for me. I hate worrying. Not because I don't want to be worried about you but because I don't like the feeling of worrying. It won't make me happy. It will only make me sad and upset.

I'm upset that you are upset today.
I'm upset that you can't eat well today.
I'm upset that you had injured your hamstring now.
I'm upset that you will be going overseas for itp for 6 weeks.
I'm upset that you still can't sleep well and have to train today.
I'm upset with mummy cause she doesn't trust me that I'm doing project in school.
I'm upset that with myself for being so tired lately and having slight headache now.

And I'm feeling very stressed up with work and assignments!
There are just so many things to be done so I had decided that I'm no longer going to go training.
I seriously need time for my studies and school now.
I'm just very bothered by many things recently. Haix.
Too much feelings and emotions to be put in words. I can't describe any.
Perplexed.

I need you now.
But I don't wanna bother you.
You are bothered by the overseas itp now.

I really wish you will go but really wish you not to go at the same time. But that bit more of me will wish you to go. It will be a good exposure and experience for you.
I'm sure you will have fun there. Though the days gonna be dreadful for us, but if we can pull through those days, we can say that our love is strong.
How will the days without you be like??
I'm scared to think of it.
I don't dare to think of it.
I don't wish to think of it too.

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