Whenever I'm upset, I will sign in my blogger account which is where I am now to blog. Blogging always make me feel slightly better but talking to friends would feel better. But if I'm able to talk to you or my parents, that would be the best. But I'm afraid of talking to my parents about it. :(

I'm upset, very upset. At first I thought I can see you today but then the meeting was cancelled so my only chance of getting to see you is gone. So now I got to wait till tmr 4pm before getting to see you again. Haix. So while I was on my way home just now(left cca conference early), I was very very very down. I couldn't feel an inch of happiness in myself. All I could think of was you, wednesday, my parents. Haix.

During the journey in the bus, I had many thoughts. I had decided to talk to my parents again, but this time only my mummy. I think I can only talk to her, not my dad. I can't stand this saddness anymore. There is no harm trying my luck. I have this feeling that I will be very happy with you because of how you had treated all this while. But like now, I'm totally not happy at all. Ytd I was happy because you were around.

And in actual fact, many of my friends had gave me positive advices. After I told them "the story", even a guy was touched by his actions towards me. Sigh. He is a damn nice guy who I can't have, who I can't be with. Haix. But I really really really wish to be with him. ARGH! =(

So I'm gonna talk to my mummy about it. I think if I really go talk to my mummy about it, it's gonna be the bravest thing I had ever done. I just hope both of us could be happy and not like now. Every sms we sent, it's filled with saddness. It's very very different from 3 days ago. Everything changes overnight. Just like The Cinderella Story,everything was back to square one after midnight.

I hope the result will be a positive one, but I can't see the positive results anywhere nearby. Sigh. Will be back to post about the result soon. :(

Labels: Upset to the max